how do i start?..

well, ahad yg suram.. sy slalu meluahkan rasa hati sy kat sini [mungkin anda smua dah jemu], tp sy tak bleh lari dari berbuat demikian. last nite, cha~cha buat pangai.. she don't want to sleep.. memula tu mcm dah nak tido, tp tak jadi. sblm tu, dia ok sgt2 sehingga lah i told her, "cha~cha sayang, esok mama pegi work.. cha~cha stay with tok mi kay.." then she said, "mmm.." lepas tu dah tak leh berenggang dah. mungkin dia takut sy tinggal dia [mama terpaksa tinggalkan cha~cha, sayang.. klau mama bleh bwk cha~cha, mesti mama bwk je cha~cha walau ke mana mama pegi..] mama tahu cha~cha sleepy tp dia tak mau tido.. bwk masuk bilik je, nangis.. meleleh2 airmata.. buat muka sedih.. hati sy sgt sedih tgk cha~cha mcm tu tp apakan daya mama sayang.. last2 dah kul 12 lebih, sy bwk dia masuk bilik, nak baringkan dia tp dia tetap tanak jgk.. nangis2.. sy bg tingting dia, pun dia nangis jgk.. pstu sy bisik kat tinger dia, dia dgr then dia diam.. pastu sy nyanyi2 [sebak time nie..] skit, tak sampai 5 minit dia tido.. kesiann dia.. dia ngantuk.. sy pun amik brg2 sy and ask hubby to go back home.. sampai umah dah kul 12.25, sy kemas brg skit, mandi and sleep [sy sedar airmata membasahi pipi].. [hubby tgh iron baju keje dia time nie.. sori dear, kena iron baju sendiri.. soriiiii..]

he asked me to go to bed. "esok nak bgn awal, nak drive lg. g tido.." :(

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when u truly care for someone, u don't look for faults.. u don't look for answers.. u don't look for mistakes. instead, u fight the mistakes, u accept the faults and overlook the excuses..

15 months

puteri nurfarisya ameera is 15 months old today.. selalunya every month mama akan bagi pressie kat cha~cha. this month mama tak beli apa2 pun lg tp mama akan beli something and bg kat anak mama hari khamis nnt k.. last nite, while watching dvd, hubby called. cha~cha not sleeping yet then sy video call. dia sedang mkn buah masa tu and suapkan sedikit utk sy.. masa tu air mata mama dah mula bergenang.. then my sis said, "td cha~cha panggey kak ma.. dia amik hp kechik, letak kat tinger dan ckp, "hello.. mammaa.." owhhh sy sudah tidak mampu menahan takungan yg byk itu. akhirnya menitis juga.. and u know what, she wipes my tears! i cannot speak, i cannot talk.. just stare at her and hubby. how i wish i cud be with her every single day.. suffer lah mcm nie.. but what to do.. sabar syima..

mengimbau kenangan 2 budak sengal

yer.. inilah kami [ 3 - 4 thn lepas].. wahahahha.. tetiba terbrowse gambar nie, terus buat neu entry! .. sy tingat time kami sopping, giler sakan! time nie, sy baru sampai kL dan hubby [masa nie sy sedang berchenta dgn beliau] sy pula baru pulang dari dubai. sgt tak sbr [setelah 4 -5 bulan lamanya tak bersua muka] nak jumpa beliau tau! okay lah, tanak citer byk, tu je. daaaaa..

12.10.2009

today harijadi abah. SELAMAT HARI JADI ABAH! semoga dirahmati Allah selalu, dimurahkan rezeki dan dilanjutkan usia.. ma sayang abah!

pressie! ^^

clarks handbag is awesome

huhuuhu.. nak handbag nie nak handbag nie.. papa dear, jom la g UK! nak beli online tp problem pulak dgn payment! mungkin tak ada rezki.. :(